When asked- "what would your letter to your birthday be?
Hmmmm Well after deep thought- and 5 days late 😳 I'll share mine.......
Dear Birthday,
Let me start by saying
You would be very proud to know that
I have chosen to live a life in which I am able and dedicated to receive and give love. To me this means that everyday I am deserving of living a fulfilling and meaningful life. Living life with intention to give and receive love are the stepping stones to a life filled with purpose and substance. A quality life.
As I reach and grip, and hold you in my hands dear Birthday- I am grateful for being able to live a decent life, an honorable life, an ethical life; one that I can be proud of. Because of course as you know Birthday- it hasn't always been that way since my birth- day.
I am grateful that the higher powers have always been in my corner and even when circumstances pressured me to doubt the presence of a higher up, I was lifted higher up- sometimes letting me fall and fail, but always providing a way for me to get back up and finish. Filling my mind with new ideas, new energy and passion to always push forward. I am grateful to have been able to stay strong even at times when I didn't feel strong. I am grateful for being able to be a provider, a supporter, an encourager, and motivator not only to others but first to myself, and without being selfish.
I am grateful for those times that I wanted to quit but did not quit everything, wanted to change the whole world around me, but knew that I had to start with myself first.
I am thankful that I can learn from my mistakes. I even make brand new ones and learn from those as well, and I've learned to do it without fear. I don't hold anything against myself or others, instead I choose to unravel the lessons that are tangled, in a vow to keep pushing forward to be all that I need to be. Knowing that I'll be all that I'm supposed to be – all that I want to be – and all that I am.
Grudges don't weigh me down anymore. Revenge is not my right hand man anymore, blame no longer shoots from the point of my fingertip.
In order to make this progress with myself Dear Birthday, I work at it every single day- no days off, no vacation days, no sick time from being the best that I can be. It's so easy to place the blame and point the finger and much more difficult to look in the mirror and start making the changes that you want to see from within.
It's easier to make the bad things someone else's fault and make the good things all because of your own doing. When in the end what really matters is what happened, how you reacted to it and what the results were. The happiness in who you see when you look into the mirror, is a direct reflection of your own effort to be happy.
I also want to say that although I know you're my birthday, I am deeply hurt that you won't show up each year anymore for those that I've lost and still grieve for. So I will continue to celebrate their birthday for them, as I still feel whole heartedly that they were absolutely robbed. I have made a choice to forgive you and trust in the bigger picture.
I will continue to refuse to do things half assed, and never use half my ass to get things done; but instead do things with my heart, completely in balance with facts and sprinkled quite nicely with my intuition and gut. This ability I don't take for granted, I am blessed in every way.
So hello birthday, I'm so damn happy to see you again; and although I am one year older I am just as proud to say that I am one year happier, one year stronger, and eager to do all that's in my power to not only see you again; but to KNOW- without a doubt, that I am definitely worth revisiting.
Love Sonia
