I Can't

I can't think too hard about it

The deaths.

The loss.

My heartache. 

When I do, I lose my breath. 

My mind.

A piece of me leaves with no reason to return. 

I can't think too hard about it.

The loss.

Or I'll get lost- and be lost. 

I'll wander in my own mind. 

Distracted on the outside. 

I can't think too hard about it,

but I can't stop. 

Searching outside the box for a deeper purpose of the loss. 

What a whirlwind daze that leaves me lost and drowned within my own thoughts. 

I can't think too hard about it. 

But I can't stop.

Quotes By - Leadership Author Sonia Olivia Williams

"Shallow people can only meet my surface"-Sonia O Williams 

 "Before you know it, it will all be over. Just focus on the life that you are preparing yourself for, and be ready" -Sonia O Williams 

"If my mind connects with you, and my eyes see you; My heart knows you, and my touch shows you- unrealistic can not exist" -Sonia Williams 

"Fate often comes disguised as camouflaged coincidences"-Sonia Williams 

"Fear is made of no substance...it lives nowhere, where is it found? Don't ever let it hold you back; it is created in the mind, and has only the home that you provide"-Sonia O Williams 

"Fear does not exist, until you create it and feed it"-Sonia O Williams 

"Never operate out of confusion, fear or anger, unless it's to save a life"- Sonia O Williams 

"I wake up in absolute confidence that my choices today will build strong foundations for tomorrow"-Sonia O Williams 

"My mind will not suffer the battle wounds of my heart"- Sonia O Williams 

"Thinking without restriction, having passion and ambition; is to be free"

- Sonia Olivia Williams 

"I want to hold your hand, so that I can touch my heart"- Sonia Olivia Williams 

"Make your worth above anything that anyone could ever purchase"-Sonia Olivia Williams 

"It is the attitude that you did it with, that destroyed the act of you doing it".         

-Sonia Olivia Williams 

"Always protect the ones that you love, and always love the ones that are placed in your hands for protection"- Sonia Olivia Williams 

"Let no man's drunken words, rest on your sober heart"-Sonia Olivia Williams 

"When a person commits suicide, maybe they feel this world doesn't deserve them" -Sonia Olivia Williams 

"A coward harbors an honesty and loyalty that proudly lives in their mind and mouth, but absolutely non existent in their heart and actions" -Sonia Olivia Williams 

"Silencing Myself"

I was thinking about a few things today, One of them was "silence" and how in silence you can always hear so much. Especially when you're really trying to tune everything out. 

Many people don't like silence because they often hear themselves; their negative selves..... Talking to them, reminding them of what they forgot to do, what they don't have, and what they still need to do. 

Silence taps on you, and in your own voice says "how dare you try to forget about me"

Why does silence often bring out the negative self, and never the positive self? yet we all crave silence, and calm vacations or peaceful road trips so that we can think. Think about what? Everything that makes us nervous and causes us anxiety? The rhythm of silence that isn't so quiet....but just quiet enough for us to hear it whisper "don't relax, don't forget about me"

The next time that you're looking for silence, search within yourself. Remind yourself that you exist, you are whole, and the nonsense and noise can wait. Tell yourself that you deserve a break of the everyday flow of trying, and giving, and offering your best self. 

just for those moments; so that you can love yourself back a little, fix yourself up a little, and be ready for whatever is next.

If you can't learn to meet your positive self in silence... 

You can never really meet silence. Silence will always be noisy. Silence will always be loud. 

"Managing My Damaging Self" 

By: Sonia Olivia Williams 

Coming soon........... 

"When a Person Hurts You"

When a person does or says something that hurts you, you have a choice. You have a choice to let it hurt you and affect the rest of your day, or to practice this skill of control and decide how what they did is going to make you feel, and what your reaction is going to be. Why can't you decide that hurt makes you realize that the other person is an idiot? could it be that this person is hurting you because they are hurting themselves so instead you feel pity for them. Remember, how you feel is an emotion that you have control of. Your reaction to that emotion will be based on exactly how much control you have. Every reaction has a consequence and sometimes that consequence will hurt you a lot more than the person that hurt you.

"Maintaining My Mind and Moving Forward" the key to not giving up on the leader within you!

Book Description

Publication Date: November 21, 2013

In this book, the follow up to “Mastering the Mind by Mixing It Up”, you will learn how to maintain those areas in your mind, life, actions and reactions in which you have made progress. You will be motivated to continue making progress and inspired to (in the least) maintain the distance you have already come. You will also be given the tools to continue on and to achieve all that you are capable of, and in every area of your life.

Are you a line walker, or you a subtle settler? Knowing is half the battle. 

A definite follow up to book one. 

"Mastering the Mind by Mixing it Up" The key to becoming your own greatest leader!

Book One- why you must read it. 

This book will take many of the current beliefs you have stored in your mind and question them. It will confuse you in a way that will force you to think outside of the box. You cannot master your own mind if the majority of your thoughts are based on those of society and not any of the ideas or facts that you've created on your own. If you are not the master of your own mind, you are a zombie. You live the repetitive life of society and are stuck in a comfort zone that is probably not even all that comfortable. It's time for you to think a bit differently, to master your own mind, and be your own greatest leader. This book will address the many things that affect the way that you think. It will explain how thinking is where it all begins. Your successes and failures, happiness and hurts, the hesitation, procrastination, and motivation all begins within your own mind.

This is a must read for any and all persons on the road to a greater and happier self. 

"Beware Of These People"

We all come across them, know them, maybe even at one time or another believed and trusted in them. I'm warning you, they exist.


Those that think as deep as a paper cut, love as strong as pencil led, and have loyalty as sure as a chameleon.      I have seen them in real life.
They would give you their last stolen penny, share all that they knew they could get back, and stick with you just as long as a post it. I have seen them in action.
They miss you as much as a mismatched sock and want you more than any bill they've never paid. They are as rare as cotton, as true as the unknown allergy, and as courageous as the broken umbrella. I have seen them.

When the facts of a person are shown to you, believe them.