I Can't

I can't think too hard about it

The deaths.

The loss.

My heartache. 

When I do, I lose my breath. 

My mind.

A piece of me leaves with no reason to return. 

I can't think too hard about it.

The loss.

Or I'll get lost- and be lost. 

I'll wander in my own mind. 

Distracted on the outside. 

I can't think too hard about it,

but I can't stop. 

Searching outside the box for a deeper purpose of the loss. 

What a whirlwind daze that leaves me lost and drowned within my own thoughts. 

I can't think too hard about it. 

But I can't stop.

" FROM LOSS TO GAIN"

" From Loss to Gain"

Wishing strength at this time of sadness and Mourning. Loss is hard, and overwhelming: 
One can only try to find comfort in knowing that an angel is gained.
An angel that is now closer to you than ever before.
There are no more- boundaries or limitations.
Nothing can keep you apart in your mind and your heart.

Fighting back the tears, the aches are so serious.
When one disappears, is robbed from their years, leaves me curious.
It rekindles my fears, leaves me hurt and so furious.

Wishing strength at this time of sadness, for my angel was here-
living with me through madness.
existing, in this world where shit happens.
enlisting, and we dealt through the sadness.

From loss to gain, I pray to my angel
that I don't go insane.
please.......
reverse from grave to cradle
if your able.
My brother, My father, My friend.
My sisters, My cousins,
The Mothers- Grandmothers;
Amen.......................................................

"When a Person Hurts You"

When a person does or says something that hurts you, you have a choice. You have a choice to let it hurt you and affect the rest of your day, or to practice this skill of control and decide how what they did is going to make you feel, and what your reaction is going to be. Why can't you decide that hurt makes you realize that the other person is an idiot? could it be that this person is hurting you because they are hurting themselves so instead you feel pity for them. Remember, how you feel is an emotion that you have control of. Your reaction to that emotion will be based on exactly how much control you have. Every reaction has a consequence and sometimes that consequence will hurt you a lot more than the person that hurt you.

"Mastering the Mind by Mixing it Up" The key to becoming your own greatest leader!

Book One- why you must read it. 

This book will take many of the current beliefs you have stored in your mind and question them. It will confuse you in a way that will force you to think outside of the box. You cannot master your own mind if the majority of your thoughts are based on those of society and not any of the ideas or facts that you've created on your own. If you are not the master of your own mind, you are a zombie. You live the repetitive life of society and are stuck in a comfort zone that is probably not even all that comfortable. It's time for you to think a bit differently, to master your own mind, and be your own greatest leader. This book will address the many things that affect the way that you think. It will explain how thinking is where it all begins. Your successes and failures, happiness and hurts, the hesitation, procrastination, and motivation all begins within your own mind.

This is a must read for any and all persons on the road to a greater and happier self.